"Sometimes It Takes More Courage To Live, Than To Die."
Don't Jump... Fly.

I Created this Extract the Day After the 5 Month Anniversary of my Beloved 4th Husband John's Death. He Died of Lung Cancer, at Home, in my arms. I was his "Official Caregiver" for 7 Months after he was Diagnosed at Stage IV. Prognosis for Survival... about 4% I think it was Then. Fought Hard to Save Him... Loved and Lost, the "Love Of My Life". He was "Skin and Bones" on the Day he Died. I was Badly Traumatised Then... both by the Nature of His Painful Death, also by the Painful Fact that I couldn't SAVE Him. No matter How Hard I TRIED.

Many Widows and Widowers Kill Themselves within the First Few Months after the "Love Of Their Life" has Died. Actually, within the First Two Years After, according to "Statistics". I KNOW WHY. I have My Reasons Why I Did Not. But God Knows... I Wanted To. Still Do At Times. But I Resist that Temptation... Every Time It Whispers in my Ear and says "Jump"!!! Just Stubborn I Guess. But also Because... I KNOW there are Enough "Good Reasons" Why I should Stay in This World, as Long as I Can, Instead of Trying to Follow John. In spite of My Pain of Losing him, that often makes it So Hard to SLEEP at Night.

You See... I'm Re-LEARNING "How To Count My Blessings". Something We Should All Get In the Habit Of Doing, When Life Gets "Too Tough To Bear". Don't You Think?

Extract of Hidden Abstract Pattern in Digital Photo I made of Reflection On Water. 07 Jan 2017