For as long as I can remember my artwork has given me a voice I’ve never had, & I often paint things that I can't convey into words. This piece, “PURGE” is the epitome of that. The shards of glass violently spewing from the eye sockets represent the sharp, brittle, pieces of life that once rid of, will no longer pain you & the scribed formulas being Dopamine, Oxytocin and Serotonin.
I guess it’s the aftermath of a piece I composed just after leaving rehab, well after I got kicked out of rehab, titled "Billy Gnosis", highlighting the chaos wreaking havoc in my unbalanced mind & the vision I had which portrayed that.
It’s a work in progress letting it all go, ridding myself of my demons, the chaos, purging the shit that doesn’t serve me. And it's an ongoing process, one that for me at times anyway, seems agonisingly slow.
When we self-medicate in an addictive way, we fail to learn natural instinctive coping skills. From early childhood trauma to the challenges faced with being a grown up. We never really harness the skills of adulting. When we wake, when the fog clears, we are left unarmed & vulnerable.
For all of us, broken or not, there will always be things, stuff, people that don’t agree with you, make you unhappy or even like you.
Ah yes, It’s the animal kingdom baby & the very fabric of society is not one size fits all. You will never be everything to everyone, not even to your closest ones, but you are more than enough. You are one in seven billion. Beautifully, uniquely you.
So this piece is not just for me, but for us all. Find your purpose & purge the fuck out of anything that doesn’t align with your world or dares to stand in the way of the happiness you deserve".