Oil on canvas, 2023
This self-portrait emerges from the unconscious realm of my creative space, transforming my studio into a symbolic vessel that reflects the intricate layers of my identity and heritage. Each element within the composition carries profound personal and cultural significance, inviting reflection on both individual and collective narratives.
At the heart of the work is the Vietnamese pig, a symbol drawn from my Chinese zodiac, representing not only the wealth of traditions surrounding food and family, but also prosperity, luck, and abundance. The pig is an emblem of my connection to my roots—culturally rich, but also a symbol of the nourishment and comfort I derive from my own relationship with food.
In the background, two paintings anchor the piece in a familial dialogue. On the far left are my father and grandfather, both of whom spent their lives in the truck-driving profession. They gaze upon me, my back turned to them in silent defiance, as I seek to break the cycle of predetermined career paths—a rebellion underscored by the expression on my face. To the right, a portrait of my mother stands as a beacon of gentleness and unconditional love, her presence a reminder of the nurturing compassion that shapes my identity.
The yin and yang koi fish represent a cornerstone of my cultural philosophy. Growing up, I was taught the Vietnamese proverb "Gần mực thì đen, gần đèn thì sáng," which translates to, “When you are close to darkness, it will follow you; when you are close to light, light will follow you.” This belief in balance and equilibrium deeply resonates with my personal experiences, shaping my worldview as a Libra, governed by an innate need for harmony. My obsessive attention to detail—manifested in the subtle precision of the artwork—is a reflection of this drive for balance in all aspects of my life. I have come to understand that every hardship, every failure, is a precursor to growth and transformation, much as darkness gives rise to light.
The hatched egg, a symbol of renewal and potential, marks a pivotal moment in the self-portrait—a new chapter of life, waiting to unfold.
The Hannya Oni mask, adorned with a contemporary bucket hat, speaks to my fascination with Japanese culture, encompassing its history, irezumi tattoo art, anime, and fashion. This fusion of traditional and modern elements underscores my eclectic exploration of identity and culture, blending past influences with contemporary sensibilities.
Finally, the rice bowl—an iconic symbol of Asian tradition—transcends its role as a simple vessel for sustenance. It has transformed here into a planter for Thadal Planta (Latin for “tidal plant”), a personal metaphor for growth, nourishment, and continuity, reminding me of the cycles of life that sustain us both physically and spiritually.
Through this portrait, I offer a glimpse into the complex intersection of personal history, cultural heritage, and philosophical inquiry—each symbol, each detail, a narrative thread woven into the larger tapestry of who I am.